Heartbroken

Thanksgiving break was great! I was so surprised and relived that nothing terrible went on. It started off ruff but ended  up good. I had a talk with my mom about her stupid boyfriend, in one ear and out the next. We had gone and looked at wedding dresses for her, and she made me pick out a bridesmaids dress. Talk about a slap in the face. Probably the hardest thing I have had to go through, only for her to top it off with "they don't know when the date will be." Justin and I had originally picked October 18, 2014 (because its our dating anniversary) a WEEK after I told my mom that she said well John and I picked October 15. Floored is about the best way to discribe out I felt so after talking it over with Justin we decided that July 18, 2014 would be best since we are both planning to be teachers, no work, and plenty of time to have a honeymoon. I have said it from the beginning that she will pick something close to mine she's already dropped may as one... thats 2 months before mine and justins date that fits within the time period I said she would pick! UGH!!! 


But my title for this post isn't about my mom its about my friend Joffrey. I met Joffrey when we were in eight grade, we had a few classes and band together. shortly after Joffrey moved to Frisco we began to "date" (what do 14 year olds do when they are boyfriend and girlfriend? not much they just talk on the phone and say they are your boyfriend or girlfriend lol I wouldn't consider it really dating but he was the first boy I had ever called my boyfriend) Although we broke up about two months into it (typical) we still remained good friends all through out high school. Today I added Joffrey on Facebook and I kept seeing people say " I hope you are doing good, i'm praying for you" and then I saw his status' about being "weak" and even mentioned "chemo" a few times, I went back a few more status' and I found out that in September of this year he was diagnosed with Lymphoma. Since being diagnosed with this cancer he has had a full round of chemo and is now in Houston for special treatment and a second round of chemo, he has lost a lot of weight and all of his hair. I am completely heartbroken. He is such a sweet, caring guy who has a big heart and an incredible talent for playing his trombone. He is in my prayers and will be until God heals his body. 


"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God" - John 14:1

November 22, 2010

I can't wait to go home for Thanksgiving, not for drama but to have a break from school for a little bit! I'm kinda annoyed right now. My algebra teacher has sent out ANOTHER alert to my advisor about my grade. I'm not even failing. We still have the final and he drops a test grade. We met last week and he basically tried to get me to withdraw from the class, which would mean I would be a part time student and poof! there goes all my aid! I would for sure not be coming back next semester if that was the case. So what am I doing? well i'm talking to him after class and finding out what my grade is with a test grade dropped and seeing about a tutor for the final ( not that it will really help) But its worth a shot. If I'm not worried about it right now nobody else should be either. I'll just take it again I mean for goodness sakes I took geometry twice, had five different tutors, the third time I came out with a 97. How does that happen? You have a good teacher. thats how. like my algebra teacher isn't even a math certified teacher, he's a youth minister. !?!?!?! ugh this school. I love it but seriously i'm a big girl I don't need anyone to hold my hand.

November 17, 2010

Today is Wednesday!!! Only 6 more days till Justin and I go home for thanksgiving break! It is much needed and this weeks seems to be going by so incredibly slow! Although I don't know if I mind all that much. 

I cannot wait to be married! To have a family of my own even if its just me and Justin, we can start our own traditions and not have to worry about split time between families, everyone can come to us! and maybe for a change I will enjoy the holidays by not having attitudes around to wake up happy, without tears. I say this like its been this way for years. Thanksgiving and Christmas are going to  be so different this year. I really hate the fact that I can't be with both parents on big holidays and even worse my little sister. I should really stick to what I told my parents all along from when they first decided to get divorced (if you can't get along together for holidays you wont have me around). Part of me wants to but what about Shelby? I can punish them but not her. 

Hopefully things will work out between now and then. I'll update as things happen :) 

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